Une autre poésie foutue (Yet another poem)

Random thoughts race through my mind
Yet grief is my sole emotion
I’m well aware you’re no longer mine,
Yet I have an unhealthy devotion

Donning my wrist with little lines
Escaping my snags with narcotic sedation
Breaking the laws of nature and science
With pills that boost the imagination

Picturing you in a satin dress
You’re the star in my coital fantasy
Your body, perfect; I used to caress
And now I feel like losing my sanity

Knowing you made my life a mess
Or maybe I’m just being silly
I don’t know, can’t make a clever guess
Looks like I’ll be guessing perpetually

4 June 2006

I was drowning
In the well of melancholy
Asphyxiating
At the brink of death

Then you came
Like deus ex machina
And you gave me this hope
But you walked away

You're a delusion.
A diversion that's blinding me
Pushing me off reality
And I am under your spell
You add salt to my life
And add spice to my wounds
You're like an exotic geiko

I put on a facade
Though I despise this charade
This bleak cycle is dull
And it's killing me

A fruitless search for mirth
And now I'm barely breathing
I hunger for you
You are just so beautiful